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why are you starting to change?shit i thought you wouldn't be like them?  i guess not.. no one ever stays the way i want them toooo. and it really sucks cos i really did like you. but now i don't even know like kinda not trying to be mean i don't know why i started to. thats about my cutie

now about my ex. i really miss him if you can't tell by this..

well X i miss you so much, and your making it really hard for me to move on. like i really wish you weren't so sweet and nice friend. like okay i thought i was over you i really thought i was. but fuck i hella thought wrong like once we started hanging out during lunch, during break everything changed. i got those same butterflies when you'd suprise me from behind and kiss my cheek. i really miss you. i can't stop, i hope someday soon it will cos your really moving on. i thought you'd come back to me, but once again i was wrong. like i thought it was just going to be something for like a couple of weeks. and today was our 2 months =/ i tried not cry i really did but now its just to hard and you weren't at school today either. i hope you get better your mom told me you were sick. but please someday tell me how you really felt cos i read something i shouldn't have and i felt like walkking in the street and getting hit by a bus cos in that letter you wrote something that you told me! and i believed you. baby just come back i can't do this. life would be so much easier. you were my bestfriend. my everything. my one and only. my BOYFRIEND<3 i miss you. i'm wearing your sweatshirt right now. and if you knew you'd be like take it off and give it to me! i don't want you to hold it for me. and make me feel like shit. but i think we need to stop hanging out cos i can't take being around you. like when i see you in the halls or when we walk around i just want to kiss you! but baby come back i need you in life. its so hard. you were the listener when i had problems w/my parents fighting. you said i was the one for you 1 week before you broke up w/me and fuck shit hella changes i guess but i'm done expressing myself. bye