Sierraaa

Fuckk, Haha You No Its To You But Yeah* moving on takes time but this is going by to sloww. these moves. your reaction why do you have to be like this. but i'm happy for you and i really am. but i don't know why you have to be so shaddy to me when i didn't even do anything. okay i kept my promise i didn't hurt you=/ but i guess it was opposite day cos you fucking hella hurt me. so many people are like move on; get over him; but fuck they don't even know you said so much shit i felt fucking special and it was all BULLSHIT but hey just remember KARMA'S A BITCH AND WILL BITE YOU IN THE ASS. but when i'm happy again promise you'll be happy for me. but i'm moving on but its just taking a really long time. and i'm really trying to do it for you cos obviously you really want me to since you seem like you don't care. and i don't know why when you see me you look like you don't even know me? but i know you do and i know you do that shit on purpose=/ but i just want you to know is that I MISS YOU.

why are you starting to change?shit i thought you wouldn't be like them?  i guess not.. no one ever stays the way i want them toooo. and it really sucks cos i really did like you. but now i don't even know like kinda not trying to be mean i don't know why i started to. thats about my cutie

now about my ex. i really miss him if you can't tell by this..

well X i miss you so much, and your making it really hard for me to move on. like i really wish you weren't so sweet and nice friend. like okay i thought i was over you i really thought i was. but fuck i hella thought wrong like once we started hanging out during lunch, during break everything changed. i got those same butterflies when you'd suprise me from behind and kiss my cheek. i really miss you. i can't stop, i hope someday soon it will cos your really moving on. i thought you'd come back to me, but once again i was wrong. like i thought it was just going to be something for like a couple of weeks. and today was our 2 months =/ i tried not cry i really did but now its just to hard and you weren't at school today either. i hope you get better your mom told me you were sick. but please someday tell me how you really felt cos i read something i shouldn't have and i felt like walkking in the street and getting hit by a bus cos in that letter you wrote something that you told me! and i believed you. baby just come back i can't do this. life would be so much easier. you were my bestfriend. my everything. my one and only. my BOYFRIEND<3 i miss you. i'm wearing your sweatshirt right now. and if you knew you'd be like take it off and give it to me! i don't want you to hold it for me. and make me feel like shit. but i think we need to stop hanging out cos i can't take being around you. like when i see you in the halls or when we walk around i just want to kiss you! but baby come back i need you in life. its so hard. you were the listener when i had problems w/my parents fighting. you said i was the one for you 1 week before you broke up w/me and fuck shit hella changes i guess but i'm done expressing myself. bye

its all your fault. you had to be stupid and ruin what you had it was so perfect but you obviously made me think he was an asshole! but he\'s not okay your making this so hard for me to live my life. i put you first before anything, you mean so much to me andi can\'t take it, there is just so much pain. yeah i might be happy when i\'m out but once i take that step in its all different. why did you have to go talk to him, be with him and wasn\'t my dad good enough and just enough for you

wow so there is this guy right.. his name is ******<3 dude i really like him and we just started to talk and shit but like he just thinks i'm a cutieee. so hey i'm getting somewhere at least. but a bad thing is we go to diff schools! that shit fucking sucks ass. and when i visit his school he's never there! and yeah i went to there homecoming and he was in SD can you say FUCKK! geez i really miss him. but still i'm covering up that i like him cos i don't want anyone to know cos then they will tell him and be like awwww how cute you guys should get together and i fucking hate that shit! like woah can you STFU & GTFO ya'kno. but still imisshim and he misses me too(x haha he told me when he got back from sd. but i can't wait till wed. cos he said me might visit me. ahhhh that means i have to dress PRETTY(X hahaha. but sadly to say i miss my ex. he said so much shit and i fell for every word he said to me. but we are finally friends again like after 1 or 2 weeks=/ but i think i'm done w/ this stuff. and dude i'm happy now cos like now i don't have to go on xanga and shit anymore. hahahahaha well okay i'm going to bounce and go write my essay for school now.

peace nigga*

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